Sunday, August 29, 2010

I am not dead

but haven't showered since Tuesday. And have brushed my teeth 3 times also since Tuesday. I will blog about everything later. Everything=awesome.

ke

Monday, August 16, 2010

confession

I may have lost my testimony of English.

I like reading books.

I think I have some stuff to say about organizing ideas and putting words together in aesthetically pleasing ways.

But.

But.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

(best of the week, late)

I think I'm going to stop pretending, at some point soon here, that my best of the weeks don't almost always revolve around James.

On Saturday he surprised me with flowers.

Oh things are going to get real gooshy here, real fast. :)

For Scout:

Some of you have already seen this. My niece, though, gets full access to videos I post here and I love the image of her (she'll start 1st grade in the Fall) watching/falling a little bit in love with this.





Also, can we talk about the best part of this song, I think, which is that is has all the synth-y magic of the 80's without any of the lusty angst? Right? I feel like its infusion of goofy (Norwegian) indie optimism pushes it from good to magical.

Enjoy.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Grasshopper v. ant

This morning I read this. And the sentiment is important and the piece is lovely, but I'm taking the selfish road on this one and talking about how reading this morning I was reminded that I need to write.

Because I stop writing in the face of uncertainty, and I haven't been writing because I haven't been certain. Things seem precarious (delicious, certainly, the summer and the gentleman caller) and I don't want to ruin the magic with certainty, you know, like butterfly wings or whatever.

And because it's time to start inhabiting myself again.

The advent of August is weighty every year. In August I reassert and renew. I make plans and budgets. I pull out my planner. Fall is on its way and August never lasts more than a minute and the thing left to do is write everything down: take stock. And the daze I've been floating through (what a fantastic summer it's been) has been so important...and now I'm left wondering how to keep the joy I found this summer while trying also to live my busy crazy life.

I think, soon, I'll write a little more about what I learned this summer...and about words being like water. Because I can't stop thinking about it.

Yes.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Best of the Week+August

This week was hard. I did hard things and had hard conversations and I failed some. Which I don't love and suppose I'm going to have to come to terms with. (Hey, there, reality. Nice to see you again.)

But, there were lovely bits:

the new Jeunet (Micmacs. It's charming, but is no Amelie) with Alea. It was a lovely evening.

contacts rained like manna from heaven. (This is the summer of the windfall, which is entirely welcome.)

fasting.

long talks with James. And playing with James. And sitting by James at church. :)